Sunday, February 10, 2008

A book in my life has been closed...

I wasn't going to post this but I just have to. Suicide is a crazy thing. Something that is so selfish. I understand that people hurt...I hurt! I just can't understand why someone would believe life is so bad that they would have to end it...they leave behind people who love them so much and it's just such a selfish act. I guess I shouldn't judge because I've never been that low that I've even remotely had those thoughts. Anyway...the entry below has brought closer to something I've wondered about for a very long time.

Once upon a time their was a 17 yr old naive girl that met a 21 yr old bad boy. They had a relationship full of drama but the girl stayed with the bad boy for about 5 yrs. One evening in the Central High School parking lot the naive girl now 21 and the bad boy now 26 sat and talked about the future. The bad boy told the naive girl that it would never work because her parent's disliked him so greatly. That was the last time the naive girl ever saw the bad boy. She thought of him from time to time wondering what ever became of his life. He had always been in trouble and she hoped by him moving to Texas he could get his life together. One day the not so naive 39 yr old woman found his cousin's name on Classmates.com and thought she would e-mail him. She asked how the bad boy was doing. A few nights later the not so naive woman visits Classmates.com and finds a response from bad boy's cousin. What she would read in that reply would hit her like a ton of bricks. She was in complete shock. The bad boy had commit suicide in 2004. Finally the book can be closed because now she knows what happened to him and she won't need to wonder anymore.

3 comments:

Unknown said...

Sorry to hear this! Hope you are OK!

RazorsEdge2112 said...

What a horrid way for a life to end; so sad. I hope you are well.

My ex attempted suicide several years ago. At any level it isn't easy.

STIX DOUGLAS said...

You should take note that each day is precious make the most of it you will have no regrets. What others do with their gift of life is their bussiness. Take control of your own and live for the future not for the past. Its easy to say would of Could of or should of after the fact. Be strong in your decessions and be thankful to be alive.